Chapter 147 - 24
Roshan was teaching Heaven how to fight like a demon, but it wasn't going very well. She was too human compared to him. He was too fast and too strong, and soon she became discouraged. But Roshan was a skilled teacher and every time she gave up he motivated her to do better, and try harder.
"Heaven, I can't tell you what to do. You and I are different. What works for me won't work for you. You need to find your own strength. Look deep into?yourself." He told her.
Heaven knew what he meant, but it wasn't that easy. On the other hand, her lesson's with Klara were going well. Heaven never thought war and politics would interest her, but studying it she understood why her parent's and her grandmother didn't like her decision. In politics you often have to choose between two evils, but
the hardest and most scary part was that her decision would affect so many lives. She would be responsible for the people of this whole kingdom when she could barely take responsibility for herself.
Besides politics and demon powers, she was also learning her witch powers. Her grandmother tried to teach her a few spells.
"I think it's important that you can take yourself from on place to another in case you are in danger. So that is the first thing I'll teach you."
Heaven was happy to know that she would finally be able to teleport herself, but mastering the technique was not easy and it took her few days to only learn one spell. She jumped around with joy when she finally managed to transport herself from one place to another by creating a portal and that she could walk through to the other side, which was where she wanted to go. But shortly after her success, she felt useless that it took her so long to learn just one thing. How long would it take before she learned how to be a real witch?
Zarin and Gina were surprised when they found out about Heaven's decision to become a ruler, but while Gina was happy and supportive, Zarin opposed to her idea.
"Why would you?want that? I don't understand. All that responsibility you are taking on and all the danger you are putting yourself in is not worth it." He argued.
Heaven knew he was only worried for her. He had always wished for her to live freely and happily, and he was the one to sneak her out sometimes.
"Zarin, I am tired of hiding and feeling pity for myself. It's not people I want to rule. I want to rule over my life that I felt I had no control over before. Now I really feel like I can control my life to some extent and plan for my future."
Zann shook his head, clearly not satisfied by her reply. "You are making a mistake, Heaven. You don't know what it is like to rule."
"You are right, I don't but there is only or way to figure out."
He stood up from his seat. "I am not supporting you in making a mistake." He said
"How do you know it's a mistake?"
"I just know. People are only going along with your idea because you have been feeling sad."
"So you mean everyone is just pretending to support me to make me happy, and not because they believe in me?" Heaven was baffled.
He sighed. "That is not what I meant."
"Nevermind. You won't understand because you never wanted to be a ruler." She couldn't help but feel disappointed and sad. Zarin had always been the one to support her.
"You are right. I won't understand." He shrugged. "I don't understand why you changed your mind so suddenly. You never mentioned before that you wanted become a rule."
"Zarin, people grow and change."
"I can see that." He said nodding.
Heaven shook her head at his resistance. He would come around eventually, she thought.
But as days went by things didn't get better with Zarin and he always played deaf whenever she spoke about her plans. Soon she couldn't stand it.
"What is wrong with you these days?" She asked.
"Nothing." He shrugged.
"No! There is something."
"I just… I don't understand this new you."
"There is nothing to understand. I just found a purpose in life. Maybe you should try it than just spending time with women."
As soon as the words left her mouth, she regretted them immediately. She could see clearly that he got offended.
"I am sorry." She hurried to say.
"No, you are right. I should go find a purpose." He said and then vanished before she could apologize again.
Yes, she didn't like his promiscuous behavior, but she shouldn't have spoken like that.
Heaven groaned, frustrated. Why was it when things got better in life they also got worse at the same time?
With sunken shoulders, she went to sit in front of the mirror and began to remove the silver pins from her hair. She was exhausted, which was good because then she would sleep immediately without thinking about other things. Preparing herself to become a ruler had helped her keep her mind clear from unwanted thoughts. She was too occupied to think of anything else, yet still sometimes she would see those silver eyes in front of her.
Three weeks had passed, but she could still remember him as if she had seen him yesterday. Sometimes she woke up in the middle of the night believing or wishing he had come back for her, but she never felt his presence again. Just as he promised he didn't come to bother her, but still, she was bothered.
Heaven shook her thought aways quickly. No more thinking of him. She just had to put up with this a few months and then it would be over. Looking in the mirror, she gathered her hair up and tied it in a bun. Her gaze fell on her now bare neck and she noticed something unusual.
Unable to believe her eyes, she leaned closer to the mirror. Where was the mating mark?
It was gone.
How?
It had only been three weeks. It would never fade away this fast unless….
No!
Her heart dropped to her stomach. Did something happen to Zamiel? She remembered the despairing look in his eyes and his words.
"Wherever my feet takes me?"
She hoped it wasn't where she thought it was.
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?????Hello Guys!
Early chapter update. I am planning to either update another chapter later at night (night here where I live) or updating it tomorrow. Hope you enjoy.
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