Chapter 96  : Worried that it won’t end

“ai, i was just trying to break into your dormitory to find a topic to chat with your roommates. i’ll forget about it after talking, how could i have something on my mind? yan, do you think i have something on my mind because i didn’t say anything?”

jiang rui looked at shi yan and said seriously, ” “If that’s the case, then you’re really overthinking it.”

“it’s just that it’s my first time living alone outside and i’m not used to it. i’m just a little homesick.”

shi yan didn’t say anything, her eyes indifferent.

under her gaze, jiang rui compromised.

“Alright, I admit that I do have something on my mind. Yan, you said that you heard the conversation between Ren Kexin and I in your dormitory, right?”

shi yan nodded.

” sigh. ” jiang rui sighed. ” then you must have guessed what i’m thinking. ”

“i can’t believe i’m feeling uncomfortable because my brother might share his good things with someone else in the future. yan, do you think i’m crazy? Am I mentally normal? I’m being too petty and selfish.”

“I can’t accept that I’m such a person.” Jiang Rui scratched her head in frustration.

“i clearly know that i’m in the wrong, but i just can’t control myself. i don’t even know when i became so selfish. Could it be that I’ve always been this kind of person? It’s just that I’ve been hiding these bad qualities?”

jiang rui cried.

He really couldn’t accept himself like this.

“yan, i didn’t realize this before, so i didn’t think much of it. now that i’ve realized it, i realize that the problem is serious. I’m afraid that I’ll even hate myself if I do.”

” a vicious sister-in-law who wants to take over her brother’s marriage and break up the couple. i’m scared when i think of the possibility of her becoming such a person. ”

“why do i have such a selfish mentality? I really can’t figure it out.”

looking at her frenzied expression, shi yan said, ” “Everyone has their own selfish thoughts, there’s nothing to be confused about.”

“Yan, don’t you think it’s wrong of me to do this?” Jiang Rui suddenly raised her head and looked at her.

“there’s nothing wrong with that. rui ‘er, i’m only asking you this. have you ever had such a strong desire to possess anything since you were young?”

jiang rui shook her head decisively, not knowing whether to laugh or cry. to be honest, before today, I didn’t even know that I had such ‘good qualities’ as possessiveness and selfishness.

since there’s no such thing, humans are not Saints. What’s wrong with being selfish once in a while? ”

jiang rui stared at her with wide eyes. she found it hard to believe that shi yan would say such a thing.

in her eyes, shi yan was calm and indifferent, detached from the mortal world, and a man without desires and thoughts. she was the only one who was not selfish.

since shi yan wasn’t a selfish person, she probably wouldn’t agree with other people’s selfish mentality of not caring about them.

anyway, that was what jiang rui thought.

No matter how she sized Shi Yan up, her expression remained as calm as ever. Jiang Rui suddenly felt that she really didn’t know Shi Yan well enough.

however, for some reason, this did not affect her love for shi yan.

Could this be a bold favoritism towards one’s own?

Because she had long regarded Shi Yan as one of her own, even though she knew that Shi Yan was not as perfect as she appeared to be, she was still biased towards Shi Yan?

no, no, no, no, yan wasn’t imperfect. she just had a bit of her own personality in her perfection.

after all, a perfect person also needed to have their own personality, right?

Shi Yan did not seem to notice the change in Jiang Rui’s expression and continued,”even if you can’t accept being selfish once in a while, then we’ll talk about it when the time comes. it’s the most unwise to be bothered by something that hasn’t happened. the matter hasn’t happened yet, how do you know that you won’t be able to deal with it when it happens?”

Jiang Rui smiled bitterly. I’m not confident. I think I might turn bad if I reach that stage.

she didn’t think so at first, but the more she thought about it, the more likely it was.

She really couldn’t accept her brother sharing his good treatment with others.

“Then we’ll wait until that day comes. Even if you turn bad, I’ll still support you.”

Shi Yan only said this because she knew that Jiang Sheng and Jiang Rui were not biological siblings and that Jiang Sheng’s feelings for Jiang Rui were clear. If they were biological siblings, as friends, Shi Yan would not have given Jiang Rui such wrong guidance.

Jiang Cheng’s feelings for Jiang Rui were very obvious. He probably wouldn’t let go of Jiang Rui easily, and Jiang Rui was very dependent and close to Jiang Cheng.

For two people like this, only when they were in love with each other could they not be hurt.

shi yan didn’t care about jiang cheng. she only cared about jiang rui.

Since Jiang Rui wouldn’t be hurt if they were in love, what harm was there in pushing her? perhaps, with her push, jiang ruixu would not find it so difficult to accept when the matter blew up.

in the past, she had been worried that jiang rui didn’t have feelings for jiang cheng, and that jiang cheng wouldn’t let her go in the future. jiang rui would be trapped and then struggle in pain for the rest of her life.

from the looks of it, jiang rui also had a strong desire for jiang cheng.

this was not necessarily because jiang rui had no sense of propriety. perhaps jiang sheng had deliberately led her to this.

Jiang Cheng wasn’t a simple person either. Since he had already expected that things would be exposed one day, he had probably made all kinds of preparations, including Jiang Rui’s psychological change towards him.

it had to be said that jiang cheng was a success. jiang rui, a good girl, was almost tortured to the point that she suspected that she had psychological problems.

jiang rui didn’t know what shi yan was thinking, but she was so touched by her words that her eyes turned red.

“yan, don’t you think you’re being a little too nice?”

How could she not be touched when Yan, who was so calm, said that she would support her even if she was bad?

“……”

Shi Yan was silent for a moment before saying,”you don’t have to be so worried about things that haven’t happened, and you don’t have to think about distancing yourself from your brother.” you should know that with the relationship between you and your brother, if you suddenly alienate your brother, he would be sad. you should not want to see your brother sad, right?”

she didn’t know and didn’t care if jiang cheng was hurt or not. if she distanced herself from jiang cheng, jiang rui would definitely be very sad.

still, she only cared about jiang rui.

jiang rui nodded.

She really didn’t want to see her brother sad. She also knew that if she suddenly distanced herself from him, her brother would definitely be sad regardless of whether she could find a suitable reason.

“in that case, why do you think so much?” shi yan said with a faint smile.

“but i’m afraid that it won’t be able to end when the time comes.”

“Yan, although I’m not the smartest person in the world, I’m not stupid either. Once I turn bad, I won’t be like han shuangshuang and su mi, who only cause small, insignificant fights. Once I turn bad, I’ll definitely cause chaos in the family, and my brother and future sister-in-law won’t be able to live in peace for the rest of their lives.”

“I’m a little afraid that I’ll become like that.”

shi yan was silent.

jiang rui’s worry was not without reason, but she did not need to worry about it at all.

in the end, it was all jiang cheng’s fault for not telling jiang rui about his birth.